Journal Entry: Sat Dec 20, 2014, 6:40 PM
Alright for the little bit of people who actually do watch me on here this will be a lengthy update for you all... And some things that I am going through and what not.
Ok first of all is me being on here:
I know that some of you all dont look at me as a friend as shoot I will be surprised if half of you even still talked to me by this point. All I really have to say is that this site has really been getting less and less and that is mainly because I really havent had the time in the past few weeks to get anything remotely finished. And as the year draws to a close I fear that all I am going to be to most of you all is just an annoyance.
The way I see it is that I have looked back on my past and all the friends I have made on here. Most of it I wouldnt take back for nothing because you actually made me feel more than just a waste of space. But now looking at this now it seems that I am growing further and further away from everyone. But its also happening on the vice versa scale too. It just seems that you all are growing further away too.
Now I know I have been in some of you all faces about liking you, having crushes on some of you and other things but they were out of deep consideration even though some probably felt like I wanted to just have someone. Now I just feel that whenever I do ask someone even if I had a crush on them for months I feel like they are just going to ignore me and go silent.
With some of you all you may have noticed that I have gotten mellow or even depressed before me admitting it to you. I have become like this cause I am afraid of liking someone. I am already getting mad at friends because they cant stop talking about their spouse and what nots. It has even gotten into my mood of drawing so thats why I have actually gotten extremely mellow.
Now for the artwork bit:
This is something I will be doing more and more to try to get myself back into the mood of it. The main thing that has been preventing me from drawing and posting art is the fact that I have been working 6 days a week for the past 3 weeks. Once the new year starts I will try to do more art and I will have a New Year Resolution up by the 1st if anyone is interested. So yeah... Thats about it for this.
The next part is upcoming projects:
I am still working on my comic very slowly due to my work and all but it is getting done. I have had to tweak some of the things about it but I am happy with the first page and will hopefully get that going again by next year.
I may add in another project into the line-up once I get this one going for a bit but I dont know yet....
Anyways that is all I can actually think of to type in this journal. Hope someone out there will read this...
Oh and PS 90% of my art will be on my new account. So this one may be just a social account but it wont be getting that many uploads for a good while.
Listening to: Regular Show
Reading: My friends ignore me
Watching: Regular Show